"Be still, and know that I am God"

This is one of my favorite Psalms. It has been resonating within me a lot lately, in many different ways. Being still is something that doesn't come easy for me! I used to describe myself as an easy going person. The more I thought about it, I wasn't that easy going, and it really bothered me. Still does. I have periods of ease and relaxation, but it's usually when I'm actively engaged in something. I think I used to engage in so many things to distract myself from the stillness, and what truths it may bring. I still do this, though not nearly as much. I don't think there are as many "truths" I'm trying to avoid anymore. This is comforting. I still struggle with this concept of stillness, though. It is possibly the most valuable lesson I learned during my "yoga retreat" (aka teacher training). Finding the stillness in myself, to open up the space for other things to flow in.
So, even now as I sit here feeling cramped up in front of my computer, I'm thinking, when can I be finished with this. I'm wanting to re-read and edit all this stuff. But why? This is what is coming out, this is blogging right? I don't like what I write, its rambling to me. It makes me feel uncomfortable, and I find myself wishing I could blog like others. Comparing. Not being still at all!!
So, I need to wrap it up, and maybe just let it be for tonight. The main thought I had about the psalm was the part that says "...and know that I am God." I think we could insert anything meaningful in there. Just trusting to know that someone or something is present for us, and letting it be whatever it needs to be, can bring that stillness. So I will try and let it.
Good night!

I was getting ready to try out my teaching skills out on Ian, and quickly I had two eager takers. They seemed pretty relaxed, I must have done a nice opening right? Feeling a bit of a void this week with out the yoga school as part of my schedule. Lulu's yoga school will forever have a special place in my yoga geneology chart. The reality of my regular daily schedule seems somewhat like a sportscar cruising slowly at 35mph. Although I feel my life is wonderful and I am very blessed, I can 't but miss the intensely close knit group I was able to sit knee to knee with, for those wonderful 10 days. I miss all your wonderful spirits! I will hopefully see you all again! Remember Tara in your prayers, chantings, mantras, good vibes...for she will wed this weekend!

xoxo