Buzzy and Smooshy

Today was extra buzzy and smooshy.  We were doing a Yin yoga practice, sitting in postures for about 5 minutes.  We were simultaneously learning about the chakras, the senses, elements...I'm feeling somewhat like I feel when I train for a new job.  All this information is swirling and twirling up about my head, and it's hard to articulate and digest right away.  A wise woman reminded me today :) , that I will remember what is important to me and what I need to remember.  I just fight with myself, because I let my impatient side yell and scream "I want it all to happen now!" And then the quiet voice that is peaking out (because I'm all loud and noisy inside) , remembers that it will happen when it needs to.  And then I hear Kira, Ushi, or Alana's smooth calming voices...such wise women!  Today, as she lead us through yoga poses,Ushi told the part of the story of Haunuman ? and how he was taught about trust.  I'm having such totally different yoga experiences than I've ever had!  It is making me hungry for more of those experiences, so I can find the yoga which fuels me at this moment in my life.  Ahhhh...and then the closing session at the end of class today, I felt a euphoric "buzzy and smooshy" feeling as we finished off with a meditation exercise.  I want to stand on a mountain top and tell everyone, "you gotta try this!"  Thank God for experiences that open up doors we never knew we were knocking on!

Try this again...I just finished a blog, thought my resistance to doing it was strong!  I don't know why, I think the experience is swirling in my head, I almost have a hard time putting my thoughts into words I feel like sharing.  But, the blog didn't post and now it's late and I'm frustrated.  A bad combination.  I felt lucky to be taught by Arturo today!  Learning about connective tissue was something I needed right now, it's amazing how something so complex can be taught with such clarity.  I continued to feel enlightened.  Really!  It has been so long since I have felt this kind of energy!  I feel blessed!  More later, when I can wrap my head around all this buzzing inside of me.

Did I mention that it was hot?

I'm involved in a yoga teacher training in Ojai, CA.  Today is day 6 of 10 days!  I was lucky, with my fellow trainees, to get to experience a sweat lodge this evening.  I feel it would be a disservice to go to much into my experience, I'm finding it hard to express the feelings surrounding it.  I had no idea what to expect.  I tried to come with an open heart, and an understanding mind.  The sweat was way more, way beyond... exceeded my expectations.  Much like this yoga training has been.  I can only say that, lying on the grass after we had all come out of the sweat lodge, looking up at the approaching full moon, under a large oak in a friends backyard, was MAGICAL!  I'll leave it at that! 

 I'm feeling aches and pains this week, that are peeking out in the most peculiar ways.  My daily training has been inspiring to say the least, and has re-acquainted me with my body parts.  I'm constantly quieting the inner chatter that goes on in my head, and trying to just hear, really listen.  And even more, trying to speak from my heart, not just speak to say something. Yeah, I'm learning to teach yoga poses, but it is way bigger than that.  I'm creating new thoughts about myself, about yoga, about my relationships with others and the world.  What more could I ask for?  

Good night for now...